>> Friday, February 18, 2011
Thank you all for your support with the funk I seem to be going through. I sincerely appreciate your comments. More than I can express! I'm doing OK. I think we all go through periods of life. Everyday stresses . . . and more . . . just pile. They become heavy, though we do carry them for months (or more) without even realizing it, and before we know it -- BAM -- we're in this weird state of mind.
That happens to me, at least. And it's hard to shake.
My friend Marissa is the best, though. (That's us -- above -- a couple years ago.) She's currently living in Iowa, in her final semester before earing her MFA in writing. (We're so proud of her!). Anyway, she sent me an email last night with the invitation to do a "cross-country dump" of my troubles.
So, I emailed her EVERYTHING (and it was a really, really long email). There must be some truth to the whole writing and healing thing (only my fellow IC senior seminar folks will know what I'm referencing there!). It was extremely cathartic.
I feel somewhat lighter. At least for now. Thank you, Marissa. You're a wonderful friend!
I don't want to stay in this funk forever. Hell no. I'm realistic, though. I can't control my life. So much of it just happens. (My favorite song lyric ever is John Lennon's "Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans.") However, I can make a conscious effort to do what I can to improve things. In other words, I do have some control over my decisions. I just get bogged down with all my obligations -- I don't feel like I have time to make those decisions.
To get there, I need to first do some stuff to perk myself up. These things may seem silly, but they'll help. I know it. Consider them a jump-start.
- Paint my nails. Get a haircut/color. Yeah. I'm a girl.
- Read The Happiness Project in full this weekend.
- Take photos. Not of food or blog-related ventures.
- Bake something (or things) without documenting it (them).
- Be outside. For HOURS. Running is excluded. Hiking is not.
- Get back to the pool. Swim ASAP.
- Visit some real-life friends soon (you know who you are!).
- Temporarily break from Facebook -- which is a time AND self-comparison trap.
- Enjoy some sparkling vino. In moderation, of course.
- Find alone time. Even if only an hour.
- Yes. Take a break from blogging.
Longer-range goals include:
- Make more real-life friends. I've recently discovered that we're both quite isolated. We have a ton of friends, just not many who actually live in our hometown.
- Keep up with the music. It's free therapy. Chorus has been awesome, and I can't wait for the next practice.
- Spend more time thinking. Less time staring at my computer. This is a goal I've always had, but I'm ready to commit now. Along with thinking . . . I need to act on my thoughts.
- Get back on track with my eating. I've been relying heavily on sugar to get me through these winter months. It can't be helping anything. A detox is overdue.
- Become a more active participant in my life. I tend to just wish away each day until I have free time. It's getting me nowhere!
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